Oblivious

there are some people in this world that just doesn't realise how lucky they are. funnily enough, these are the people that are always complaining about something. and that one something is the one thing that they have the most. am i confusing anyone yet?

you see, there's this girl. she has no bf. she never did. she did try to date this guy but things ended pretty badly. luckily for her, she wasn't so "into" the relationship and the break-up cause minimal damage. her parents are trying to get her to date and always question her about her relationship status. to make matters worse, they speculate every guy that she goes out with, may be her bf. because she spends much time hanging out with the girls, her parents think that she may be a lesbian and they're awfully worried about it.

now, her parents may be worried but she isn't. her policy on relationship is, if i have one, i have one, if i don't, so what? funnily, the guys that we hang out with, pays most attention to her. even the guys who are already attached. she is the life of the group. any outings without her, would be less interesting or get cancelled.

she doesn't realise this but as an outsider, others notice it. so far so good, no jealousy emerged nor any catfights among the girls. the odd thing about all this is, i don't see how she doesn't realise that she is beautiful and charming and the highlight. if only she opened her eyes a little bigger (use toothpicks maybe?), she would realise that she has men swooning around her feet. instead, she goes dreaming about actors (*whispers* gay ones, for that matter) and saying how she'd probably end up as spinster.

oh well, some people can be so blind to what they have...

Back To Work

after 5 days of workless-days, i have gotten the hang of being a slug. today, waking up was a drag and coming to work was torture. now, sitting at my desk, during lunch time, and dreading the next 5 hours. to make matters worse, my 2 malay colleague from my department is on-leave so it's only myself and 1 other guy and seeing as we have to take turns for lunch, i decided to just buy back. all in all, i'm spending 9 hours sitting on my ass at my desk in front of this pc. my 1 other colleague from this department told me before lunch that he might be on MC tomorrow as he has blood test and probably on Monday as well. DRAT! only left poor me alone... as it is, there are other colleagues around but still, my eyes are voluntary closing itself and i have to force it open. i have piles of work stacked on my table but i can't bring myself to do it. i'm just gonna take it slow today and do whatever i can.

how i wish i didn't have to work but still have money to spend. i know that even though that may not always be a good thing but for now, i don't really care about the consequences.to be honest, i don't see how that could backfire. anyone care to enlighten me?

anyways, let me tell you what i have been getting up to for the past 5 days. on Saturday night, we went for yumcha at our usual mamak. Sunday night, was at Adhi's house because he recently got robbed and didn't want to spend so much money so he instead invited us to chill at his house. was there till 3am, playing his ps2 and watching Saw. Monday is the day we were invited to Cindy's housewarming-cum-birthday-cum-gettogether. the theme was RETRO had loads of fun with boardgames and meeting up with the whole gang. suprisingly, not much pictures were taken (considering we had a number or camera hoes around). Monday night ended at 4am on a Tuesday morning. Tuesday night, the whole retro gang got together for yumcha and discussed about the day before as well as some non-related stuff. Wednesday night was a quiet one. no news from each other. i guess everyone was too tired out from the exhaustion of the past few days with the staying up late and knowing that Thursday is a 9am working day.

and i say it again....

I WISH I DIDN'T HAVE TO WORK AND STILL HAVE MONEY TO SPEND!!!

My Weird Friends

isn't it funny how a group of friends can get together, laugh, joke, talk and share secrets but yet talk about each other behind their backs.

well... that's how my group of friends function.

in a way, this is not such a bad thing nor is it a good thing. you see, i have a group of very good friends that hangs out together every other day. sometimes it's the whole group, sometimes it may just be one or two. but either way, this is the group that gives the most support and spends the most time together. this group consist of 8 girls and 4 guys (tho most of the time it's only 1 guy).

as you all can guess, women bitch and yes, this group that has 8 women bitches a lot. and mostly it's about each other. but mostly, when they bitch about someone, everyone else has the same qualms about this person. take for example, 1 girl which we all deem as very calculative, everyone else in the group thinks so too. so when we get together and the topic of this particular girl comes out, everyone will agree and have loads to say about it. BUT when she's around, we are all happy-happy-laugh-laugh.

this makes me wonder, what is being bitched about me? much, i presume. considering i can probably bitch about myself quite a bit too.

we do try to come up with ways and solutions to get that particular person to change that particular behaviour but some times, that just doesn't seem to work or it may just work for a little while and things go back to before once again. all in all, this bitching about each other can be pretty healthy so long as that person doesn't know or knows about it themself already. as you know, keeping angry and negative vibes within, will just lead to catastrophe when all hell breaks loose.

my weird friends and our weird friendship. it works!

Work Related Issues

it's such a lazy monday. the haze is so bad that everyone's getting sick but the government is like not really doing much about it. the weather's hot like hell. trying to sleep at night just damps your bed. walking out is like walking on some hilltop (minus the cool breeze). the haze was supposed to be cleared 2 days back but up to date, it seems like it's getting worse. even the rain is not helping. with the rain, it cools the air but once everything dries up, its a desert once again.

it's raining now. with me being sleepy, this additional coldness isn't helping me keep awake. my eyes feels like they're closing on their own, even as i'm typing this. a few minutes ago, i was at one of my collague's cubicle. he was out the whole morning at a bank, testing terminals. he only got back around 1pm and he was in a foul mood. i asked what triggered him and he just said it was the same old thing and that he's really fed-up with everything. he is so ready to leave.

i decided to speak to him. afterall, i didn't feel like working anyway. and didn't help that a certain colleague who was fixing the pc next to mine, kept farting. he said that this is the 1st time he has ever felt like he NEEDED to leave a company in his whole working life. i can say that i understand what he feels and is going through. i know this because i feel it too. i have been working for 5years now and all my previous jobs weren't so pressuring. i left those company because i felt i weren't progressing. in this current company, there are many aspects that i worry about but just can't voice out.

regardless of all these obstacles, i have decided to rough it out a bit more with this company. afterall, i did come back to this company by myself when i left for a month before. i give myself another year and see where this will take me. as it is, my boss had promised that things and business would run more smoothly by next year. let's just see how true that will be. but on the up side, things are looking more promising on the surface with the hiring of more staffs.

we'll see...

Unappreciated

when one makes an effort in their work.
when one tries to make things simple for all.
when one beautify things.
when one puts their heart and soul.
when one is finally happy with the outcome.
when one gets compliments for people around.

but this one gets shot-down.
gets shot-down without even knowing.
without even knowing the boss rejects.
the boss rejects all the one tried to make.
tried to make life simple for consumers.
simple for consumers to understand.
to understand is to bring sales.
to brings sales is to make everyone happy.

finally.... WHATEVER!